date: Monday, July 04, 2011 @ 6:51 AM
hmm back to blogging....
well i finally graduated and
i get to go on a solo trip to malaysia,
KL was the city
Penang was the old heritage town,
langkawi is where the beaches are.
This trip which was what i really looking forward to,
and was fascinating since i was still studying..
n yeap i realise my dream.
This made me thought tat,
if i never made the effort to pursue what i wanted,
i would never have made this trip come true,
i guess this apply to whatever that is going on in my life.
i know ppl are concern about the fact that when will i get a job,
prospect...salary.....
but to me,
this are worthless....
i wan to be happy doin the things i enjoy,
life is so short...
shouldnt we pursue what we wan to do
instead of just doing sth you dun like,
sth which make you dread going to work everyday,
doing sth for years n years
thats ur life??
i wont want that.....
no matter how much ppl deter me from my dreams,
i will work on it....
there is a saying :
"Regret what you had done, rather than regretting what you have not done"
yup tat sums up what i m gona do wif my life....
i wan to progress,
i wan to move forward.
date: Thursday, February 17, 2011 @ 6:50 AM
hmm u called me on vday.....
i tot u wanna tok to me.....
but u onli wanted my user name n password.....
i m realli heart broken.....
i know u had a great vday.....
congrats.....
i duno why but the pain is back...
its reali painful
but i cant call u......
pls.....i duno what can i do.....
cherish ur love one.
date: Friday, February 11, 2011 @ 8:12 AM
i duno why.....
but i felt jealous seein u wif others....
i mean all along i haf been feelin this way.....
i know nth i say now will mend anything......
many a times memories comes back...
i miss the times we had....
i juz wonder y i cant put all these down...
like here i m still cryin over u....
i juz feel so helpless
without u by my side....
m i pathetic...?
all these while.....
onli u exist in my heart...
its a kind of slow painful torture, u know?
i still love u....
rem wat day 13th is?
anyway happi valentine' day.....
thou i realli wan to spent it wif u.....
i rather spent it alone....
date: Thursday, February 03, 2011 @ 6:49 AM
A brand new year ahead of me.........
well looking back on 2010, i m glad that everyone beside is me is healthy......
i did alot of travelling too......i guess these trips realli help to broaden my life,
it makes me feel alot better.....realli love Tioman, Langkawi.....and of cos my recent trip to taiwan.....hmmm sometimes yes i do wish u were wif me....
hmm i realli duno how this yr would turn out for me....
i would be grad this sem....i guess alot of changes this yr....anyway for 2011,
i hope i can get more involved in doing social work such as goin to the old folk home.....
i have been talking abt it but i realli dun haf the time to get down to it.....
i also hope i can pursue what i want in life......yeap...
n i still hope ppl around me stay healthy n happi always.......
hmm well i hope u would find a job that u like soon.....lead the life u wan......
hmm today is the first day of cny......
well went to visit my grandma.....she isit doin well.....she is actually in a hospice....
looking at her, i try very hard to fight back my tears.....
she is so thin n weak.....
i jus find it sad that she just lie there all day....no one to talk to...
i just wish her gd health....
u went bck home......i realise i still miss u......
i cherish the time we spent together sometimes...
the intimacy that we shared....
xiang ni, ai ni
date: Thursday, December 09, 2010 @ 6:53 AM
i am sori.
i realli hate myself.....
i dun wan to treat u this way
but i m afraid my love for u will resurface.
all these while
i have been trying so hard to keep it within
today i went to collect my term paper
not so gd....
i tot i could handle it despite goin thru so many sems
but i could nt
i juz brokedown
u were the onli one who came to my mind
i try so hard to not call u
but i still did.
but u were busy....
i shouldnt haf made that call...
dun take pity on me....pls
just let me suffer this alone....pls
sorri i haf to treat u this way....
the pain came back.....
i wanted to tell u but i cant....
sorri
date: Wednesday, November 24, 2010 @ 7:11 AM
life has been pretty peaceful these days,
well not realli, i just had a good crying session last week,
didnt know why but something inside me dwell my tears,
yes i dun deny its u,
its time i should wake up....
but nevertheless i will still treasure our memories
keep it wif me always,
i miss the old u,
take care of urself
i m sure u r happier now
can go whereever u wan
be a carefree bird.
.........................
exams exams and exams.....
i wonder how i did....
but i told myself i did my best.
it has been a realli stressful day,
just finish a paper,
wrote alot of pages as if there wasnt enough time,
and yes there realli not enough time.
after my paper, i took a bus back...
suddenly my surroundings was so noisy to me,
i hear people talking loudly,
all sorts of people,
sometimes i juz wish tat they can just shut up,
the whole world can just shut up,
and let me haf some peace.
date: Thursday, October 21, 2010 @ 2:48 AM
hmm was realli heart broken yesterday,
i know i dun mean a thing to u now
but i still hope sometimes u would just care for me,
ask abt me
but u never....
yes, perhaps in the past i took things for granted,
but now i cherish every moment wif u,
then i thought, why hold on to something that u doesnt wan anymore.
all these while,
all these things i did for u,
i never regret doin it
juz hope that u r happy,
but i guess u juz took my concern for granted.
i called u,
there were many things i wanna tell u,
i wanna ask abt how ur life is,
but u sounded like u dun realli wan to tok to me...
perhaps i think too much
but it realli pains my heart when i m holding so tight onto our memories,
you r letting it go.
yes u r happy wif ur own life,
perhaps i m juz a disturbance to ur life,
sorry for being such a bother.
i juz wonder why i m so foolish
its been so long and i am living in pain everyday,
why is it like tat?
it only points to 1 thing, i love u
i know what i should do
take care.
